Aiken

I was browsing over a book when I came across a unique name. I didn’t know what made me take a glimpse at that name. It just caught my eye. Aiken. Hey, I think it’s cute. I fancy saying it and even writing it. Aiken. That’s great! I just created something from nothing. But I thought that Aiken needed an owner-someone who will really be worth the name. One day, I realized that I just gave Aiken to its first owner. I was happy and contented at that time. I knew that Aiken was in good hands. And since I love the name, I then learned to however love its new owner for making me feel happy at certain times. Now it means someone who makes me happy! But the day came when Aiken started to show me that he never deserved that name and that I was that stupid to give away Aiken. I just came to realize that he never understood the meaning of the name. Out of frustration, I really shouted at him. But he just stared at me and walked away. So I cursed the day I gave him that name. Now the name needs a new owner. That would be another special someone who would really be worth the name. I will find him and I won’t give up. I’m still 14 and I’ve got a lot of time to discover who that someone would be. Time will tell but I’ll be waiting…

This is what I wrote two years ago. Mushy huh? I was fourteen then guys and I didn’t know what I really wanted in life so please bear with me. I just met someone who made me hate anything that makes me feel appreciated. I get annoyed when people appreciate me for like this and like that. I don’t know why but I don’t believe in all of them. I choose only those who I can trust. Insecurity, people might say. So what? I just knew it was stupidity! It probably made me close my mind and heart. I cover up with all those crushes and numerous cute guys I tell my friends but they all suck! Man-hater? No. In fact I have a lot of boy friends. It’s just that I don’t easily trust boys that much. But even if two years had already passed, I still feel the same. I hate it. Nevertheless, I still want to look for that someone who will understand what Aiken really means. I know that he, she, or it is just out there. And like what I wrote, I’m more than willing to be waiting.

And how about if I tell you I found that someone?